This is week 1 of my devotional journal through Solo (by Eugene Peterson). This 2014, I hope to learn much as I bare my heart and continue working on being consistent in my conversations with God (and with you). I’m fairly new to this so I’d appreciate your thoughts; very excited to hear from you all! God bless everyone~
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Day 5: The bread God has given (Exodus 16:9-16)
What do I complain to God most about? Now that I think about it, it has always been about this unquenchable desire of mine to find something that will make me happy, fill me, excite me, challenge me, something that I’ll love with all my heart and fill my days with joy (I’ve always thought career and relationships would). But God knows better. He knows that He’s the only one who can do/be that and who’s worthy of all of me.
Am I perplexed of His answer to my concerns? I think not. But the stubborn part of me is still so extremely dissatisfied most days, so wanting. And I have to keep on remembering that all that God allows in my life is His “bread from heaven—exactly what I need”.
So, while I’m in this new job, though I have countless concerns and uncertainties (not as promising as my previous role, planned company restructuring, upcoming permanency review), I believe that all will be well. There’s a lesson to learn (humility, stillness?), things to rid myself of (full schedule, career certainty, comfort zone?), and important habits to form (prayer, sleep, exercise?).
God, please help me be continually reminded of your being enough for me. Always. There’s no need for me to desire other things, because only you can satisfy. Amen.